CHAPTER 5 - Caught In A Fiery Blaze

"hey, what the fuck?"

"ARE WE IN PRODUCTION, JO?! ARE WE IN PRODUCTION?!"

"of course we are! we're in the fucking studio!"

"WELL, YOU DON'T SOUND LIKE IT!"

"what are you - "

"JO,YOU'RE PREVIOUS MATERIAL WAS BETTER THAN THIS! ARE WE SHIFTING GEARS? TWO MINUTES IN THE SONG AND I'M ABOUT TO PUKE. YOUR BAND LOOKS LIKE SHIT, TOO. THEY FEEL IT - YOU DON'T."

"i'm - i'm sorry, megan."

"LET'S CALL IT A DAY, JO. CALL ME WHEN YOU'RE IN THE MOOD TO ACTUALLY WRITE A SONG."

"yeah. fuck."

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"WHERE'S THE INSPIRATION, JO? YOU USED TO HAVE COOL WORDS WITH THE COOL NOTES, NOW, EVEN THE INTRO SOUNDS LIKE TRASH, I SUPPOSE THIS ISN'T YOU ANYMORE."

"fuck it, megan. i'm just tired."

"TIRED? GO FUCK YOURSELF, JO. YOU WERE OUT THERE FOR ALMOST HALF A YEAR AND NOT EVEN A GODDAMN SONG."

"i wrote twelve songs. i wrote them."

"YEAH, BUT THE MUSIC SUCKS."

"how bout we do shift gears?"

"NAH. WON'T WORK. THE COMPANY WON'T LIKE IT. YOU KNOW BETTER."

"..."

"STILL IN HEARTBREAK?"

"what? no! i - "

"THEN WHAT IS THIS, JO?! THIS CRAP-SHIT ALBUM YOU PUT YOURSELF AND YOUR BAND THROUGH?! WHAT? YOU WANNA BE WIPED OUT OF THE INDUSTRY AND GO BACK TO THAT UNDERGROUND SHIT YOU USED TO BE?"

"the underground was great. and we were not shit."

"I KNOW. BUT IT DOESN'T BRING MUCH ON THE LIMELIGHT."

"i - a hiatus maybe."

"HIATUS?! YOU WANNA BE IN HIATUS?! GODDAMN IT JO!"

"what? what? i - i can't explain it myself. i - i must have lost it."

"NO, FUCK YOU DIDN'T. YOU DIDN'T LOOSE IT, JO. THAT FUCKING MASON JUST STOLE IT AWAY."

"hey, what the fuck?"

"WELL, IT'S TRUE, ISN'T IT?"

"..."

"GET BACK AT HIM."

"..."

"PUT THE DAYLIGHTS OUT OF HIM AND SMASH HIM INTO PIECES. WHEN YOU SEE HIM BLOODY AND GOUGING BLOOD -YOU'LL BE INSPIRED TO WRITE THOSE SONGS WE LOVE TO HEAR FROM YOU."

"you're a bad influence, megan."

"DON'T BE ALL UP AND KIM CHIU ON ME, YOU'RE PATHETIC."

"i can't do that to him. i - "

"YOU STILL LOVE HIM?"

"..."

"HE FUCKED YOU UP GOOD. DID HE MADE YOU EAT HIS DICK OR SOMETHING?"

"huh? what? no!"

"WELL, HE'S HAVING THE TIME OF HIS LIFE WITH THAT GROUPIE-TURNED-WHORE. HE'S EATING RIGHT OUT OF HER HANDS!"

"i don't care anymore."

"BLAH, BLAH, BLAH. DON'T GIVE ME THAT DON'T CARE SHIT. FYI, I FUCKING KNOW YOU VERY MUCH."

"drop it, megan! i let it go, why can;t you?!"

"BECAUSE - IT FUCKING SHOWS! IT'S OBVIOUS YOU HAVEN'T BEEN OVER HIM YET! AND DON'T GO AROUND TELLING EVERYBODY YOU ARE! CAUSE THIS - THIS FACE - IT FUCKING SHOWS ALRIGHT?!"

"..."

"COME HERE."

"..."

"I'M SORRY. YOU DON'T USE TO CRY WHEN I GIVE YOU SERMONS."

"fuck you, megan, fuck you very much."

"HEY, WHAT ARE BESTFRIENDS FOR."